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To all those who have asked, I’m fine now.. The storm has blown and I have emerged stronger and wiser.. I pray we have learnt and will keep on learning valuable lessons…

Anyway, to you folks outside Aussie-land, today is a public holiday! =0) Today is the public holiday in lieu for Boxing Day… =0)

I spent Christmas with the Wise family; aka Joel aka my classmate aka my housemate.. It was a typical Aussie Christmas with a Christmas lunch more than anything else for two days, Christmas and Boxing Day… After both lunches were card games which was followed by evening tea which is dinner. They showed me another of traditional Aussie families; family time spent together playing card games, namely Canasta (which is of a South American origin) and May I. Yes, these are played with modified poker cards. Canasta is usually played with teams working together to outsmart the other and May I is such a polite game, with each player asking "May I" whenever he wants to get a card from a stack.. =0) I did have a great time with the Wise family.. A really different Christmas compared to what I have experienced before in Singapore. Indeed I felt lonely without any love ones with me but the ones with me really showed me family love. I thank God for that.

Anyway, you must be wondering why such a title today. That’s because I have literally been fencing… Being showed so much love in the family, I have volunteered to help out in some chores the Wises have got to do before leaving for Sale in the next two weeks. Among those is rebuilding their boundary fence with their next door neighbor. And so there I was, helping measure, heave and cutting those heavy Aussie hardwood. It is a really good experience… Never will I get to build a fence like this in Singapore, let alone a typical picket fence! Anyway, I was shown the ropes and here are the pics as usual… =0)

The main fence structure itself…

Perspective view of the structure and the staples…

Me with the fence…

The start of the fence and the work continues…

Hard to say I’m sorry

Chicago

Everybody needs a little time away

I heard her say

From each other

Even lovers need a holiday

Far away

From each other

Hold me now

It’s hard for me to say I’m sorry

I just want you to stay

After all that we’ve been through

I will make it up to you

I promise to

And after all that’s been said and done

You’re just the part of me I can’t let go

Couldn’t stand to be kept away

Just for the day

From your body

Wouldn’t wanna be swept away

Far away

From the one that I love

I just want you to know

Hold me now

I really want to tell you I’m sorry

I could never let you go

You’re gonna be the lucky one

When we get there gonna jump in the air

No one’ll see us ’cause there’s nobody there

After all, you know we really don’t care

Hold on, I’m gonna take you there

Is this the world we have created

Queen

Just look at all those hungry mouths we have to feed

Take a look at all the suffering and greed

So many lonely faces Scattered all around

Searching for what they need

Is this the world we created

We made it on our own

Is this the world we invaded

So it seems, In the end, Is this what, Were living for, Today,

In this world that we created.

You know that everyday a helpless child id born

Who needs love and care inside a happy home

Somewhere a wealthy man sitting on his throne

Waiting for life to go by

Is this the world that we created

We made it on our own

Is this the world we devastated

Right to the bone

If theres a god, up in the sky, looking down, what must he think

of what we’ve done

To the world that he created.

I’ll Sail This Ship Alone

Beautiful South

If, if you choose that we will always lose

Well then I’ll sail this ship alone

And if, if you decide to give him another try

Well then I’ll sail this ship alone

Well they said if I wrote the perfect love song

You would take me back

Well I wrote it but I lost it

And now will you take me back anyway

Now if, if you insist that this is for the best

Well then I’ll sail this ship alone

And if, if you swear that you no longer care

Well then I’ll sail this ship alone

I’ll sail this ship alone

Between the pain and the pleasure

I’ll sail this ship alone

Amongst the sharks and the treasure

If you would rather go your way then go your way

I’ll sail this ship alone

If, if you’re afraid that I won’t make the grade

Well then I’ll sail this ship alone

And if, if you agree to him instead of me

Well then I’ll sail this ship alone

Well they said if I wrote the perfect letter

That I would have a chance

Well I wrote it, and you burnt it

And now do I have a chance anyway

If, if you swear that you no longer care

Well then I’ll sail this ship alone

I’ll sail this ship alone

Between the pain and the pleasure

I’ll sail this ship alone

Amongst the sharks and the treasure

If you would rather go your way then go your way

I’ll sail this ship alone

Well they said if I burnt myself alive

That you’d come running back

Heaven Knows

Rick Price

She’s always on my mind

From the time I wake up ’til I close my eyes

She’s everywhere I go

She’s all I know

And though she’s so far away

It just keeps gettin’ stronger, every day

And even now she’s gone

I’m still holding on

So tell me where do I start

‘Cause it’s breakin’ my heart

Don’t wanna let her go

CHORUS

Maybe my love will come back some day

Only heaven knows

And maybe our hearts will find a way

Only heaven knows

And all I can do is hope and pray

‘Cause heaven knows

My friends keep tellin’ me

That if you really love her

You’ve gotta set her free

And if she returns in kind

I’ll know she’s mine

So tell me where do I start

‘Cause it’s breakin’ my heart

Don’t wanna let her go

CHORUS

Why I live in despair

‘Cause wide awake or dreaming

I know she’s never there

And all the time I act so brave

I’m shaking inside

Why does it hurt me so

Maybe my love will come back some day

Only heaven knows

And maybe our hearts will find a way

Only heaven knows

And all I can do is hope and pray

Maybe my love will come back some day

Only heaven knows

And maybe our hearts will find a way

Only heaven knows

And all I can do is hope and pray

‘Cause heaven knows

Heaven knows

Heaven knows

One More Lonely Christmas..

It’s joyful season..

People are laughing..

Songs are playing..

Love ones are busy loving each other..

Friends are slapping on each other’s back..

Everyone has everyone in mind..

I wish I was home now..

At least the might be friends..

At least there might be love ones..

At least I’ll get to do something..

But alas..

All I can get to do is work as much as I can work..

And spend the rest of Christmas with my computer..

One More Lonely Christmas..

I can’t help it. I am jealous. There’re somethings I saw I cannot explain. Even after explaination, you still refuse to understand. Why are you doing this? What happened to the fantastic communication? You don’t know how this is taking a toil in us. You don’t know how stubborn you are. You don’t know how much pride you have in you. You don’t know me.

It’s really a tiring life. Why do we have got so much uphills when we only got our own legs to climb. Is love really a moltivator which drives you or pushes you? I really don’t want to struggle anymore but because of the light, I push on each day. Before, so many atimes I have asked Him to take my miserable life from me. I don’t want to live. Looking at me, what have I got going? Right now. the purpose of me pushing myself so hard now is starting to look bleak and yet the reason still doesn’t know. It’s really painful right now… It’s more painful then ever before… I wanna fly…

Uh huh… It’s now time to update my blog… Lotsa things have and had been happening in the life of Ansley Jones… Some good news, others not too good… So here’s the gist of it all…

Bad news first… I am not eligible to do my honors.. Apparently, my cohort has done so well that they have raised the bar and entry to honors has a GPA of 5.6 compared to my 5.333… I *was* really jealous compared to my singaporean seniors cos they had it easy as their previous institutions had affiliations with UC and thus they juz got in it without two hoots… My consolation is me knowing I am better that them in my work and it shows… =0) Anyway, Lance told me the cut off of honors in Business is only 5 and he has been told my grades reflect the top 15% in UC… Oh well, I just commit this to the Lord… And shown below is my Sunbeam kettle and toaster set exhibited at the Canberra Center… =0)

More about Joel’s place… Yes, I am currently boarding at Joel’s… His folks Russ and Jan have been so kind to actually allow me to move in when my UC tenture ended instead of the previously agreed January… Cos of that, I got to live with an actual Aussie family.. a VERY nice Aussie family… Jan and Russ is such a perfect couple… She’s a great cook who indulges in her family history while he is a great encourager who indulges in his Ford Capri-s… He has 10 cars… =0) He’s all patient and all willing to teach so much so that he has taught me to use his powertools and I actually got to help him with the building of the new shed… It’s gonna be sad when they leave for Sale in January for his new posting but I’ll live… This house is gonna turn to a bachelor pad… =0) My room…

I have been and gonna continue to work like crazy over this summer… Dad has finally send me the money… He sent me beyond a decent amount of money.. Unfortunately it is still not going to see me through this year… Upon calculation, I would be surviving on AUD80 a week after rent… It’s gonna be a lean year for me… =0( And that’s why the drive to work like crazy… Summer is the time to wash cars indeed… We had 188 cars in the wash today… Woah… =0(

Oh yes, I have lost my blond locks.. Jan was so kind to cut em off for me and this is the new old me.. =0) And to add to that, I have started to run around my neighborhood…

I dunno what I am gonna do for Christmas; everyone’s away with family or love ones… Yes, I am feeling lonely but I guess I’ll juz drown my sorrows in work… =0)

Alrighty.. Can’t think for anything more to say so toddle loo…   

I’m BACK!!!! Yayyyyyyyy! I have finally gotten my broadband at my place… I will be updating my blog soon… Keep an eye for the updates you loyal readers you!